Just a little cocky, self-absorbed, vain, etc...

So I realized that the name of my entry today didn't really make sense unless you knew what I was thinking. So I can give you at least a little of that. I am all of the above, and I'll tell you why. I loved the comments I received verbally and written about my journaling for my race. It was nice to know that people cared, that they're cheering me on, and that I matter. I think we all get caught up and feel like we're invisible. Like the individual grains of sand on the beach. Often we're overlooked as a single grain, and more viewed as part of one complete thing. Sometimes I feel invisible to the world. Sometimes I feel alone in my suffering. Sometimes, and even worse, I feel alone when I triumph. So maybe this can be my sounding board, my way to say to the world, "I'm here! Don't forget me! I have something to say, something to contribute! And I'm worth caring about!" Maybe it's extreme to say I'm cocky, self-absorbed, or vain, but I think that I have value. I think you should want to hear from me. I think I can be interesting, amusing, even funny. I think I can stir up passionate feelings, whether I get angry and sound off and then piss you off, or I can share a heartbreak that makes you feel thankful. I think I'm important, and I don't care if that makes me self-absorbed.